02 Jun Dear Mama
I hope you know that everything that I have done, do, and will do for the rest of my life is with you in mind. It still feels like yesterday that you were here but in reality it has been a year and three months now since you left. I think about you all the time, I miss you all the time. Sometimes I cannot believe that a year has gone by..then I remember that I still have a lifetime without you. I get caught up in my emotions when I think about you because I try my best to be positive because I know that you have been hurting for so many years due to your illness. Truth of the matter is I know that you are in a better place but truth also is I am hurting every single day without you. You and I did not always have the best relationship as I grew up, we bumped heads a lot and I felt as if you didn’t understand me. In reality, I simply did not understand you until I started putting myself in your shoes. Growing up in different generations as Vietnamese women made us different but at the end of the day despite the arguments, misunderstandings, you loved me and our family more than anything and you showed me that the love of a Mother is irreplaceable. You always told me that I wouldn’t truly appreciate you until the day you were gone- and you were right. I feel like my entire life has changed since you have passed. Everything feels different, everything is different. I feel different, I am different. When you began your new life, I feel that during that transition, I also was able to start a new life through you. You have taught me so much my entire life and you still continue to teach me things each and every day. I know that you’re guardian angel and that with you watching over me there is nothing that I can’t do. There is still so much for me to say but for now I will leave it with..
I miss you, I love you and I cannot wait to see you again Mama.