22 Oct 28 will be great.
October 22nd. It is now officially one month away until my 28th birthday. For those who have read my recent post “Circle of Life”, you will know that I struggled with my birthday last year as it was my first birthday without my Mom. 27 was one hell of a year with a lot of changes- adapting to life without her physically here, quitting my position at LVFT and going back to work for myself, making my fitness goals a priority again, finding balance between everything in my life..and more. I feel as if this year went by extremely fast, sometimes I don’t even know where the time went and I still can’t believe that it is almost my birthday again.
As I entered college I had a set plan on where I saw my life and I worked extremely hard to get it. Graduate with a business degree, get a well paying job at a corporate company, make my parents proud, have status, get engaged married and have a kid by 30, buy a house, etc. You know, the typical “American dream” I suppose. I truly believed that I was going to have that life. I don’t know exactly why that was my plan, maybe it’s because I thought that’s what being successful meant when I was younger.
As I have gotten older I have changed drastically. I used to be afraid of change but now I see that change means growth and if you aren’t changing then it means that you are not growing; and in my opinion if you aren’t growing you’re merely existing in this world instead of living. For 25 years of my life I was existing. As I am about to turn 28, I have never felt more alive and more confident in who I am as a person and what my true beliefs are in life. I have a vision now that is truly mine. I think when we are younger we tend to create a life for ourselves that we think will please others, a picture perfect life- a life that others would want. Or maybe that was just me; for a long time I painted a perfect life but truth of the matter- it wasn’t perfect. I’m not afraid to admit that because me accepting who I was and trying to understand why I thought that way has helped me grow internally and become the person that I am today.
I was unhappy with myself and I didn’t realize it until I was 26. For so many years I lived a life that wasn’t mine and ultimately I realized I needed to figure out what I needed to do to be happy. As cliche as it may sound, I truly was on the pursuit of happiness. In the course of three years, I quit my corporate mortgage job and became unemployed at 25, found my passion with fitness and pursued it as a career, won Miss Vietnam of Southern California, began working for a fitness apparel company while running my own personal training business, ended a 3 year relationship, started a relationship with myself for the first time in my life, turned 26, my Mom passed away, tried figuring out what life meant to me all over again, quit the fitness apparel company to solely work for myself and my vision, met my soulmate who lives in San Francisco, and so much more that I can’t even list them all. You see, all of this was absolutely not on the original plan. My life these past few years have been a roller coaster to say the least. Starting over multiple times in different aspects of my life was scary, overwhelming, nerve wracking to say the least but I knew every decision I made was the right decision for my future and I refused to be anything less than happy and fulfilled. For once in my life I did what I wanted to do for me without thinking about how someone else would feel or think. I mean after all, this was my life and I needed to start taking more control of it instead of doing things to please others or doing what I think I “should do”. I can’t change the past and the things that have happened but I can always start over and write a new ending, I am not afraid to let go and start over in my life. This mentality has helped me become fearless.
I may not be where I thought that I would be as I am about to turn 28 but I am exactly where I am meant to be. I am my own boss with my personal training and social media- I get to help people live a healthier and happier life for a living. I happily live at home with my Dad who supports and loves me unconditionally. I am deeply in love with the man of my dreams. I have amazing friends. I am alive. I am healthy. I am happy. If I could go back and change anything I wouldn’t because I know that everything that has happened in my life has happened for a reason, that this is all a part of His plan.
My Mom’s passing was the ultimate sign for me to live my life the way that I want to and I finally am. The pursuit of happiness isn’t always going to be smooth road- there will be bumps and even roadblocks along the way but with those roadblocks it will give you detours which will guide you to the path that you need to take. Life truly is one hell of a ride but that is what makes it so beautiful.
I am excited for 28, I feel that it will be my year. I want to feel great at 28 and I will make that happen..
28 WILL be great.